Craving sun

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It rained for three weeks, straight. Without sun, the solar panel wasn’t feeding the battery. Couldn’t use the lights on the boat, nor the laptop; certainly there was no internet. No chance to do the laundry. Everything in the boat was damp, musty, smelly, or starting to sprout mold. There was nowhere we could go for a walk on these boggy islands that are technically below sea level and therefore flooded during the wet season. We sat, or lay around for hours at a time, in the dark. There were several days at the beginning of all this when I thought I would have a little melt down. All my energy was starting to funnel into something like suicidal madness. There were times when I wanted to rush screaming out of the boat and jump into the strong current of the river, kicking my legs, churning the water with my arms, risk drowning just to feel alive again.

I caught desperately at the few threads of sanity remaining, and forced them into painting things, instead. Imagined scenes loosely based on the jungle all around us. Mechanically, at first, but as the ideas started to spread, I was pushing paint around with more and more enthusiasm.

It all started with the journal page, above. I went on to make this postcard (gave it to Kris…)

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Not the first time creating something has saved my sanity…I’m sure it won’t be the last.

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26 thoughts on “Craving sun

  1. its raining almost every afternoon everyday here in Virginia. Gloomy morning, then the sun comes out midday, muggy and then here comes scattered rain in the afternoon. Amazingly, it doesnt pour hard everywhere. Raining cats & dogs in one area, and driving 4 to 6 miles away, guess what, no rain in this area. Reporting from Virginia, USA this your Tita Richie. Your ninang is here with me. .

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  2. Artist are moody just like weather. There is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Embrace the rain as every raindrops give life to nature. As long as its not typhoon or hurricane you will be fine. Love your adventures, wish I can do that.

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    1. Ay, summer nga pala sa Pinas! Pero mas matindi ang tag-ulan natin diyan…may kasamang bagyo. Dito, at least walang bagyo… Kamusta na? hope you’re well and happy! Missing you. Missing everybody, I guess. LOL

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  3. Love the postcard, very nice colors. Nature is always beautiful. About the rain, maybe you want me to send you some sun from southern spain hehe. Here I have sun every day, all day long, it’s boring!!! I miss rainy days, really! Hope you’ll have sunny days soon, hugs!

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    1. I love the rain, but it’s good to have a cozy home, maybe a garden, and electricity would be nice! It’s the dark and damp of the boat that drives us crazy. Wow, Southern Spain, sounds wonderful! Forget about sending me sunshine, can I just have a ticket? ๐Ÿ˜‰ Thanks for the lovely comment!

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    1. *tucking it away in my pocket* thanks, Alis! Envying you guys the Dry…glorious days in Darwin. It sounds crazy, but I am looking forward to going home in a few years. Miss my life there.

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      1. Our three months are almost up…two weeks? Then, Granada, which will be having its rainy season when we get there. Lordy. We are moving with the rain. But it’s gotta stop, eventually, no? ๐Ÿ˜‰

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  4. I have been thinking about you lately, wondering what you were up to! getting your post in my inbox made me smile ๐Ÿ™‚ surfing on the edge of madness is what makes you such a great artist, if everything was always good and smooth your art wouldnt be so good! same goes with music… Artistic/ creative people have to journey inwards, deep inside themselves and look at their own darkness in the eyes…. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. You’ve hit the nail on the head, Noemie! Thanks for the inspiring comment! Yes, I have Joseph Campbell’s words etched in my brain: “…and where we had thought to find an abomination, we shall find a god; where we had thought to slay another, we shall slay ourselves; where we had thought to travel outward, we shall come to the center of our own existence.” (Hero With A Thousand Faces)

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